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i saw the light fade from the sky
Dec. 17th, 2014 01:32 amWhen Kili wakes, it's with a whimper.
He gasps for air next, eyes widening with panic as he clutches at his chest, searching for a wound he was quite sure had existed a mere moment ago and one that he cannot find now. Perhaps he'd imagined it, he thinks, though the ache that remains is something he cannot quite explain. He wears his armor but this is not Erebor, not Eren Luid, not even the green of the trees he can see above him can make him believe that he is in Hobbiton; no, it is a place that is entirely unfamiliar, but that is not of his concern, not yet.
"Fili," he grunts through ragged breath, "Fili, I've just had the strangest dream." He pauses, waiting for an answer but frowning when he receives none. "Brother? Nadad?"
Kili reaches a hand out to his side, expecting to be able to shake his brother awake but when he finds only grass beneath his fingers, he finally turns his head to the side to see nothing but empty space beside him. "Nadad?" he calls out again, and it hasn't been often that he's spoken in Khuzdûl on their journey, for it is not meant for anyone but their own to hear, but Kili has already sensed it. As sure as he is that he is now alive, he knows that his brother is not with him. It isn't until Kili sits up that he realizes that he is not, in fact, alone.
There are people around him, Men and women and children, all faces he does not recognize and in strange dress, the likes of which he has never seen. His breathing grows heavy, and it's then that Kili opens the fist still held against his chest to find his stone. The rune stone, the one that his mother had given him, sits as heavy in his hand as the weight of his failure to keep his promise to her does in his mind. Innik dê. Return to me. He hadn't, he won't, and Kili doesn't know by what means the stone has come back to him when he had passed the promise on to another, but he pushes himself to his feet so he can stumble into the nearby wood. He is grateful that those around him seem to pay him so little mind because Kili is certain he could not bear any pity for the tears that escape down his cheeks as his memories of his brother and of Thorin, of Erebor, of Tauriel and his own last moments, come rushing back to him.
( Spoilers for BotFA )
He gasps for air next, eyes widening with panic as he clutches at his chest, searching for a wound he was quite sure had existed a mere moment ago and one that he cannot find now. Perhaps he'd imagined it, he thinks, though the ache that remains is something he cannot quite explain. He wears his armor but this is not Erebor, not Eren Luid, not even the green of the trees he can see above him can make him believe that he is in Hobbiton; no, it is a place that is entirely unfamiliar, but that is not of his concern, not yet.
"Fili," he grunts through ragged breath, "Fili, I've just had the strangest dream." He pauses, waiting for an answer but frowning when he receives none. "Brother? Nadad?"
Kili reaches a hand out to his side, expecting to be able to shake his brother awake but when he finds only grass beneath his fingers, he finally turns his head to the side to see nothing but empty space beside him. "Nadad?" he calls out again, and it hasn't been often that he's spoken in Khuzdûl on their journey, for it is not meant for anyone but their own to hear, but Kili has already sensed it. As sure as he is that he is now alive, he knows that his brother is not with him. It isn't until Kili sits up that he realizes that he is not, in fact, alone.
There are people around him, Men and women and children, all faces he does not recognize and in strange dress, the likes of which he has never seen. His breathing grows heavy, and it's then that Kili opens the fist still held against his chest to find his stone. The rune stone, the one that his mother had given him, sits as heavy in his hand as the weight of his failure to keep his promise to her does in his mind. Innik dê. Return to me. He hadn't, he won't, and Kili doesn't know by what means the stone has come back to him when he had passed the promise on to another, but he pushes himself to his feet so he can stumble into the nearby wood. He is grateful that those around him seem to pay him so little mind because Kili is certain he could not bear any pity for the tears that escape down his cheeks as his memories of his brother and of Thorin, of Erebor, of Tauriel and his own last moments, come rushing back to him.
( Spoilers for BotFA )
