willnothide | because it was real

Kili doesn't know the first thing about dates or how to go about making a first one good. As far as he understands, it's a method of courting that involves dinners and romantic outings, among other things, but such dates had no place in the Ered Luin (nor under Thranduil's rule in Mirkwood, he would imagine), so in planning one for Tauriel, Kili had found himself at a bit of a loss.

He'd dared not go to Fili for help, not when he'd desired more than relentless brotherly mockery, and so he'd chosen Beth because she is in a happy relationship with someone of her own world and also, she has been an excellent friend to him, one of the best he's made in the city. Both truths had made his decision to ask her for advice seem perfectly valid, and he's glad now that he had because that is how he's ended up here.

Tauriel loves the stars, Kili knows that from the way she'd once described them so delicately--

They are memory.

--and Beth had recommended a place in Darrow called a planetarium. There, he'd met a kind fellow called Tim, who'd agreed to assist in letting Kili into a room where the image of the stars would span the great lengths of the ceilings and also where Kili would have Tim set up a picnic of sorts with food from Derek's truck while Kili is gone to collect Tauriel.

All of this had earned Beth's approval, and Kili only hopes now that it will earn that of his love. He cannot express beyond what he already has just how much his heart yearns for her, how desperately he'd needed to see her live on Ravenhill even if it meant his own death, but he can start here. Dwarrows do only love once, he's been reminded, but Kili's heart has belonged to Tauriel for one lifetime already. He has no trouble imagining another with her, as long as she'll continue to have him, no matter how quickly or slowly her feelings may grow.

With a deep breath and an urging away of nerves that he finds terribly annoying, Kili knocks on Tauriel's door, hoping against hope that everything about the evening goes according to plan.

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It isn't uncomfortable but it is considerably unfamiliar, to be kissing her this way when until now, the brush of their lips have been more chaste than anything else. She isn't the first he's kissed, but she is the first he's ever loved and that makes this all the more important. All the more special. He'd wished for it in Arda, to know more than just the touch of their hands, but fate hadn't been kind to them there. Kili would not have thought that it would be kinder here, that Mahal would see it fit to bring them together in this world rather than their own.

But in Darrow, there seems to be little judgment for whom one chooses to lie with. He's seen men with men, women with women, and it doesn't bother him in the slightest but Kili does know that back home, his kin would have greatly frowned upon his relationship with Tauriel. Thorin and Thranduil would have had that in common, at least, though his uncle would not take it kindly to hear him say such a thing aloud.

He nearly protests when Tauriel pulls him into her lap, though the thrill that shoots up his spine at the feel of her lips against his neck silence anything he might have been close to saying. Though there have been others, those experiences had been born of curiosity more than anything else. This is different, this is real, a step in what he hopes will be a long future with the one he loves so much.

"Very strong feelings, you say?" Kili asks with a breathless laugh, letting his hands travel down her sides until they come to a rest on her hips. He leans forward to gently nip at the space just beneath her earlobe and smiles. "I should like to hear more of these. Or perhaps you should just carry on showing me."

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Tauriel sucked in a sharp breath when his hands traveled to her hips. It was not as risque as some couples she had seen touching in this world but it was such a new and pleasurable experience to her that she could not hold back her shock. It was certainly a good feeling though and one she did not want to stop.

"I forbid you from stopping," she told him, her mouth finding his again as she deepened the kiss, tongue teasing against his lips, feeling incredibly forward. Others, including Kili, might feel she was foolish or naive at the pleasure she found in such a simple act but she was willing to blame such pleasure on Kili's skill rather than her own lack of it. "I will physically restrain you if I must."

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"You do outrank me, Captain," Kili teases, pressing a trail of light kisses down the length of her neck, "so I suppose I cannot deny you when you've given me such an order. Although..." A kiss against her jaw. "I must admit..." A kiss to the curve of her cheek. "A punishment doesn't sound entirely undesirable. You could do much worse than physical restraint, I imagine."

What she knows of intimacy, Kili isn't certain but seeing as he's hardly an expert on it himself, he only hopes that the things he says and does will serve to bring her some sort of pleasure. It does send a thrill through him and it shows in the way he shudders as he lets out a huff of sheepish laughter. He seems to be doing well enough so far, at least, but he suspects that they've both been quite limited in their experiences. That alone gives him confidence; it means they can navigate this together.

"Tauriel," he murmurs, and he has nothing more to add, only wants to speak her name because to say it, to think of her and be with her, it brings him the kind of joy he's never felt with anyone else before. Kili wraps his arms around her, inching forward in her lap and letting out a soft moan as he presses another kiss to her lips. He could do this for the rest of the night, he thinks, and there's no doubt that he will be perfectly content.

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"And you would never be... insubordinate," she said, gasping at the feel of his lips on her neck, the scruff of his beard on her soft flesh. It caused her to flush warmly and she fought to keep from squirming in a rather undignified manner as he pressed himself closer to her. Kili was a menace, of that she was quite certain.

Her hands wandered, first threading through his hair then down his back, impossibly broad and muscular. Her fingers itched to feel his skin directly against hers and she found herself somewhat frustrated by how covered he was. His own touch on her felt incredible, so much more than just the pressure of his fingers. It was his desire to touch her that she also found pleasurable, that she should be wanted in such a way.

Sliding her hands up his chest her fingers teased at the top of the collar, ghosting along the bit of hair there. It was a heady thing, all of this, but she would not wish it to stop for anything. Tauriel felt truly alive in a way that could perhaps only be matched by battle.

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It'd been surprising at first, to learn of the playfulness Tauriel is capable of, but it'd been one of the first things about her that Kili had been attracted to most. Even behind the bars of his Mirkwood cell, her retort to his admittedly lewd implication of what might be in his trousers had been a source of amusement, and he'd thought over it for most of the evening until she'd returned.

This is hardly the first time he's imagined at length what it would be like to be intimate with Tauriel, to undress her for the first time to see what the deceptively delicate parts of her that lie beneath the layers that separate them must look like. Her body is much lither than any Dwarf-woman, which shouldn't be appealing to him if the opinion of other dwarrows is anything to go by but Mahal help him, Kili finds her more beautiful than any of his own kind. Perhaps this isn't the best place to succumb to their temptations but at the same time, he wonders if isn't the best place. Under the stars, like the first time they'd met, learning the body of the love of his life--it all sounds like something he might once have thought could only happen in a dream.

He lowers his eyes to watch her fingers play at his shirt, his forehead resting against hers as he brushes his lips over her knuckles. He moves one hand to trace along the curve of her breast, slowly and cautiously to give her a chance to stop him if she must, then swallows hard as he lifts his gaze back up to meet Tauriel's. There are no more words that he could say in this particular moment and if there are, he cannot think of them. He is lost in this, in her, in the way it feels to touch someone like this and know that he loves her with all his heart.

"Tauriel." And there it is, the one thing he can manage to murmur, the only thing that matters. Tauriel.

It's as if the rest of the world has faded away.

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Tauriel did not set out to explore such physical boundaries with Kili this day but she could not say that she was disappointed in the direction things had gone. She had been curious about such things for some time. There was no denying that she was strongly physically attracted to Kili, as well as what she felt for his character as well. She had studied the way that his body moved, the firmness of his broad shoulders and the way that his breeches fit him in such a pleasingly snug way.

To be touched by him though in this manner caused a hiss of pleasure to escape her lips. The feel of his hand on her breast is entirely foreign but so pleasurable it shocked her. Her body responded and it was only with effort that she did not push her chest more into his hand than she already did. The sensation was quite pleasurable, though she wanted to be clear with Kili where she stood in regards to boundaries.

"My people- my people do not join themselves physically until they web," Tauriel said, the words seeming to come slowly through a haze of pleasure. "The act of marriage and- and sex are one. While I love you dearly I do not believe I am quite ready for such a commitment."

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Kili arches a brow at that, though his grin twitches playfully as he lowers his eyes to the hand that remains on Tauriel's breast. There haven't been any others he's touched like this before, though he'd never done anything to strike down speculation in the Ered Luin that he has, and it isn't for another half a moment that he finally lets his hand graze back down the length of her side until it's resting firmly on his own lap.

The arousal that had been building within him slowly fades as he forces himself to a state of calm, taking deep but quiet breathes as he wills himself not to keep touching her the way he wants to, the way he knows she must want him to if the way she'd responded had been any indication, but Kili merely shakes his head and presses another kiss to her lips.

"I may not be known for my patience but for you, I would wait a lifetime," he says, affectionately nudging his nose against hers. "It's probably best that we don't go any further anyway, considering where we are. Besides, we've a feast being ignored and a dwarrow never lets good food go to waste."

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The absence of his of touch on her breast made her feel surprisingly lacking, as if there was something that was supposed to belong there but was now gone. Strange how something so new could feel as if it belonged. While Tauriel greatly appreciated Kili's caution and his desire to not push beyond where either of them were comfortable she did not appreciate that Kili had stopped so abruptly. He seemed so concerned that he had not even noticed that she declared her love for him.

For Tauriel did love him. It was a thing that she did not all together understand but it was powerful and real, perhaps more real than anything she had felt before. She knew that she loved Kili with all that she was in a way that she could never deny.

Tauriel had also very much enjoyed what they had been doing and did not wish it to stop so suddenly. Even in this Kili could not help but be a menace.

"I do not believe that I gave you permission to stop," she said, her voice low as she grabbed his shirt and pulled him in for another kiss. Her hands sought the edge of his shirt before sliding under it, fingers trailing up along his chest, teasing the hair as she felt the strong muscles there. "Or are dwarrows so wary of a precipice that they never venture near it?"

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Kili grins against her mouth, his shoulders shaking with silent laughter before he pulls his head back just slightly to regard her. Shivering at her fingertips trailing over his chest, he reaches up to cup her cheek, brushing his thumb over soft, ivory skin that provides such a contrast to his own, calloused and tanned from spending so much time outdoors. "I, for one, have never feared edging too close to that which may destroy me," he counters, lips twitching with amusement. "And I do believe, Tauriel, that you will be the end of me if we carry on like this."

He's no interest in pressuring her in any way. When they do lie together, it will be because they're both prepared for what it will mean, and in knowing that, Kili is perfectly content. His love for her has no boundaries, it is not confined to this world or their last, and in spite of his tendency to do as he pleases when he pleases, Kili is not unwilling to admit that he is Tauriel's servant. She is aware of this, he thinks, and yet she does not fully take advantage of it. That only makes him love her more.

Still, he supposes there are other things they can do without lying together, and it seems Tauriel is rather eager to explore those possibilities. He can hardly deny that he'd like to do the same.

"What is it that we can do, then, hmm?" he asks, shifting his hand to the strap of her dress, nudging it aside so he can leave a trail of kisses down the length of her neck and shoulder. "If you won't let me eat, perhaps you can indulge me in another way."

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"Then I shall truly mourn your end, for I have no designs on stopping," she said, tilting her head with a gasp so that he might have better access to her neck. She felt her body shiver with pleasure, a reaction that only Kili's actions seemed to produce in her. While it was true that no other had done anything close to this she could not imagine it feelings so good with anyone else. If she was not careful she would get carried entirely away in what he was doing.

"I think you are doing quite well on your own at the moment without any suggestions from me," she told him, fingers moving along his chest, one of her thumbs brushing against one of his nipples. She was more than a little frustrated that he had so much clothing on. It would be far easier to touch him if his shirt were off but for the moment that was a line she was not quite ready to cross. "You have my word that if I think you require instruction I will give it."

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He's hardly well-practiced in this sort of thing, and it's only Kili's fear of disappointing her that holds him back. Tauriel has given him no reason to fear such a thing at all, it's something he knows is his own doing, an internalized insecurity that he must overcome because for her, he would gladly do anything. His arousal is steadily growing within his trousers, he's certain she must be able to tell now, but he merely lets out a pleasured groan against her skin as she brushes her finger against him. He continues to kiss his away over her soft skin, reaching her collarbone and nipping just lightly before moving to the other side, repeating the process until the other strap of her dress is dangling beside her arm.

Pausing to let his gaze flicker up at her, to meet her eyes as if seeking permission without wanting to verbally ask her for it, Kili gently tugs the dress down to reveal her breasts and for a moment, he's stunned into silence. She's beautiful, absolutely beautiful, and he'd expected nothing less but to see her like this is beyond words. Bringing his hand up to cup one breast, he uses the other to do as she'd done to him, brushing a thumb over her nipple and letting out a soft gasp as he watches it harden.

"Tauriel," he murmurs, lifting his eyes to meet hers again, "you undo me." Passing his tongue over his lips, he repositions himself so that he might have better access to touching her, wanting nothing more than to feel her shiver under his hands again. But first, he wants to make one thing very clear, whether or not she's already certain of it. "You can tell me to stop, you know that. No matter what we do, you can tell me to stop."

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Tauriel would have sworn that her people did not become breathless, not in the manner that Kili's hands on her breasts rendered her. It was a wordless gasp on her lips as her body arched into his hand on its own accord. It was a heady sensation, to feel so out of control, but she did not fear it. She trusted in Kili to not harm her. Truly, it seemed as if he would do the opposite to her.

"Please do not stop," she moaned, her voice low with heat and desire that she had never felt before. Her head dropped to his shoulder as her fingers clutched more tightly at him. "I need you, Kili. More than I have ever needed another."

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Control.

It isn't something he's quite mastered over the course of his seventy-seven years of life, though Kili has never quite felt badly about that. He's hardly ever acted as a proper heir of Durin, of that he is sure and has even been told more than once, though he hadn't started paying any mind to the insult until he'd joined the Company. Under Thorin's watch, every mistake, every rash decision he'd made, had been met with a look of disappointment that would fill Kili with regret. If his uncle were ever to discover his feelings for Tauriel, he can only imagine the uproar it would have caused, the anger and betrayal it would have instilled in Thorin; but he cannot bring himself to care.

He's always loved Thorin, has always respected and valued his uncle's opinion, but in this, Thorin has no say, not even within Kili's mind. The way it feels to glide his fingers over Tauriel's skin is incomparable to anything else and as he ducks his head to flick his tongue over her nipple, Kili cannot help but to find himself yearning for so much more. His body has responded in kind with Tauriel's moans, and he shivers, his hips rolling against hers before he pulls back just slightly to gaze up at her.

"Lie down for me," he murmurs, gently nudging her down until her back is against the floor. "Tell me what you want. Tell me how you need me."

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"Touch me," Tauriel said, letting Kili lean her back. She feels entirely safe with him in ways that she is not sure she has ever felt before. Protecting herself or others has never been an issue for her but to feel so completely safe in such a vulnerable manner with someone is new to her. But she likes it and she would not trade it for anything. It feels too good, the way he makes her body arch up suddenly when his tongue meets her nipple and he rocks against her.

All that she wants is more of him. More of this, even if she is not entirely sure what this is. It is new territory for her, uncharted and wild and everything she had never knew she so desperately needed.

"With your mouth and your hands. I want to feel you near, I want to feel your skin against mine," she told him, reaching out to take one of his hands to place it over her breast.